Day 7: Psalm 31: 9-16

"Be gracious to me, O LORD, for I am in distress;
my eye is wasted from grief;
my soul and my body also.
For my life is spent with sorrow,
and my years with sighing;
my strength fails because of my iniquity,
and my bones waste away.

Because of all my adversaries I have become a reproach,
especially to my neighbors,
and an object of dread to my acquaintances;
those who see me in the street flee from me.
I have been forgotten like one who is dead;
I have become like a broken vessel.

For I hear the whispering of many—
terror on every side!—
as they scheme together against me,
as they plot to take my life.

But I trust in you, O LORD;
I say, "You are my God."
My times are in your hand;
rescue me from the hand of my enemies and from my persecutors!
Make your face shine on your servant;
save me in your steadfast love!"

-Psalm 31: 9-16 (ESV)

Father, thank you for building a solid foundation in my soul that cannot be broken! I have often wondered over the last few months what could possibly hurt my soul more than not being able to conceive a child...well you are revealing that to me! Lord I confess that my silence toward you was stubborn and a way to avoid having to deal with the pain and loss I feel. I know now that this was only hurting me more; being apart from you affects everything in my life! I am sorry that my friendships and marriage have suffered. I am also sorry that I chose to hide from you as though you didn't know exactly how I felt or what was going on in my heart! How childish, how foolish I have been! Father, I pray for my relationships, especially my marriage! Lord, be the center of my life and of these things! May we turn to you with our pain and sorrow, trusting that you will comfort us with your peace. May we confess our anger and confusion toward you, may we come to know with our whole heart and mind that you are GOOD! That you LOVE us and are working in our lives. Father, may we have eternal perspective and hope! I know that you love me and I know you are doing awesome things in my life. Father, thank you that I have a place with you in eternity and the things of this world will not matter when I get to live forever praising your glory! I pray for an eternal focus!

In Christ's strong name, Amen!